Eureka!

I can't remember the "light bulb" moment, but at some point I came to the sudden realization that I was being dishonest with myself. For as long as I could remember I had fooled myself into thinking I was something, many things really, that I was not. I would have described myself as brave, but racking my brain for an example, I wouldn't be able to remember the last time I had taken a risk. I would have said I was a a go-getter, but I would be hard-pressed to think of the last time I took any initiative. I came to believe an illusion I had created and misrepresented myself as the person I wanted to be rather that who I was in reality.

In his book A Million Miles in a Thousand Years Donald Miller writes, "A character is what he does." I can say I am brave, outgoing, decisive, spontaneous, adventurous or a go-getter, but unless I'm doing something about it, these characteristics are only aspirations. Miller challenges his readers to live better stories than the ones they are currently living. I want to be a better character in a better story.